I just got done shaving, it is so fun! I love it! woot.
Nothing much happened today at all. Just messed around. Really nothing to do. The damn electricity went out for like 2 hours which really sucked because then there really wasn’t anything to do at all.
I just watched movies and messed around. It’s great being off work for two whole days, but then it sucks because I have no idea of what to do. I mostly just sleep 
which is worth it.
So tomorrow I have to go back to work, which sucks a little but, but at least I’ll have something to do. I don’t have to be in til 1pm, which isn’t bad. But I have to get up alot earlier so I can go get my check and pay some bills and such. I don’t know though if I want to keep my cell phone or not. I’m freaked out about the entire two year thing, and my bill is over $100 which is alot. They give you 15 days to make up your mind about it, and the day after tomorrow is the 15th day. SO I gotta make up my mind tomorrow. I’ll probably end up keeping it. I don’t talk to many people on it so I guess I’ll see if I can get the plan lowered to a different one. I dunno what to do about that really, ha.
Man my email provider sucks so badly! I’m trying to use inbox.com, but for some reason my pop client (incredimail) cant connect to their lame servers, and also I logged in an hour ago to send an email to myself at gmail, and it took almost an hour for the email to get there. How lame is that? I like the entire blank at inbox.com addy, but the system sucks. I wish I was able to get a cool email addy with google. damnidunno at gmail is way too dang long haha.
damn its already 2:17. I need sleep! I didn’t wake up today until 2something PM, so I’m not really sleepy or anything so this sucks.
I can’t believe that I’m 23… 24 on the 8th, and still single! I should be married by now right? It’s crazy.
I’m all weird and shit because It’s like I don’t trust anyone anymore. Especially girls. So many of them have lied to me and played lame ass games, and I don’t really believe anything that they say anymore. and it’s not healthy. I’m trying to fix this, but I keep going back. it’s weird because I didn’t used to be this way. It’s not just girls I get to know but its almost people in my family just lie all the time. I hate it. cant trust anyone anymore. sometimes I think that it was better when I wasn’t this way such as when I was little, but I was only dumb and naive then. lies were still happening I was just a fool and believed it. I wonder if I’m scared of feeling like a fool again which is why I don’t trust anything. I don’t know.
I especially cant seem to chat online with people anymore. they always seem to think I’m being a dickhead or I hate them or something. it’s weird. most of the time I’m being sarcastic which I think is funny and I guess they just don’t pick up on it. I really need to work on that. I think people in real life are thinking the same things. I don’t totally understand that yet, but I need to work on it ha.
I’m worrying about too much crap tonight I guess.
anyway’s its time for bed. maybe I’ll put a movie in and pass out watching it. dunno
I’ll write again later
-josh
