I’ve been looking all over for the Kurt Cobain Diaries. It’s a book or whatever of all his doodles, journals etc that he always wrote on everything. I’ve been really interested in him lately because he was so artistic and really doesn’t seem like a guy who’d hill himself. I know that a lot of people think Courtney Love and others killed him or at least had something to do with it, I don’t know really. I just know that she is a very creepy girl and I wouldn’t trust her with anything. Hopefully I’ll find this book or ebook soon enough. I like to get into people’s minds and the best way to do this is to weird their journals and diaries.
I really only like two songs by Nirvana. I might like a lot more if I heard them, but I’ve only heard a few, and the ones I like are “Smells like Teen Spirit” and “Come As You Are”.
I can kinda relate to him in some ways, but I’ll write about that later.
Man I’m so tired! I seriously hate being tired all the time. But the good news is is that I don’t have a major headache haha. I have a slight one, but it doesn’t really bother me. I really cant imagine what it’d be like to not have a constant headache. For as long as I remember I’ve always had them. Especially when I was younger and more active. I remember playing as a kid with the headaches and when I move my head the worse they got. it always sucked. So that’s just life for me really.
What I really hate is the damn brain fog crap. I hate not being myself anymore, I hate making any sense, and I tired of sounding retarded all the time. IT’s sad really.
The worst thing about it is that there is nothing that I can do about it. Everyone knows how much crap the American health care system is. I don’t have the money to boo through all of that. When I do grotto the doctor to find out what is causing this shift they just blow me off and say something about depression. Seriously I’m not depressed! I wish that I were. At least then I could even think well enough to be depressed. It just sucks.
I’m so bored! I tried playing a couple computer games, but I suck at them and I keep getting murdered. Especially on the multiplayer ones. So that’s no fun. I might go try and play this game called “Wulfram” again.. uhh actually I’m going to go play it again right now. ha. I’ll right again later
-josh
