Wow, I finally decided to put this journal thing back online. why not? Not using the domain and I need something to put on it (as I said before)
Anyway’s I hated the blue theme I made before, it was too happy like, ha and it was just gay. It was pretty but I dunno. not in the mood. I might switch off and on or something. Depending on my mood 
The black and red theme I had on here before was cool, but at the same time looked kinda lame. so I took the skull background off and made a new logo at the top, and removed all the red beveled edges and corners and shit, and then it what it turned into. Good for now
I finally have two days off from work, WOOt. I kinda like going to work now since I hate being stuck here with nothing to do, but at the same time the job sucks. I wish I got into the music I always wanted to create, but I don?t see that happening anytime soon. too much lame ass drama happening lately. I dunno. just dunno..
I’m trying to be nicer to people lately and show more of my personality. I seem to always be in a bad mood anymore, and its starting to really suck. So I’ll be working on that ha, uh.
Does anyone have an idea on how to change the brush tool size in adobe flash cs3? It won’t let me and the pencil tool sucks. I need to make some new flash videos and stuff for the semi-retarded site. I haven’t used that flash shit in years, so I dunno how to even use it, but I’ll get there.
I think it should be a rule for me not to write about girls on here anymore. ha Girls seriously let me down. I swear all the runs I run into are bipolar or something. They seem really cool and sweet at first, but then they change and its weird. And I end up feeling like a fool and then I think that they don?t deserve to have their name on my sites so I delete it, which is all pathetic at the same time. maybe its best to not write about them? Who knows.
someday I’ll find the right girl and it’ll be cool. so fuck it all now. I don’t really worry about it, but it would be nice to have someone who misses me much and loves me. I never really had that. it’d be cool. But isn’t a major thing for me right now.
I tried to buy the joshx domain back, but the dude didn’t reply. So whatever. Keep it. damnidunno is a good domain, but I’d like something more personal and short, but its cool to stick with this one.
fuck I have nothing to do!
net is so boring anymore. I don’t know how I used to have so much fun on here. seems like I only get on here anymore Cruz I live out in the country without shit else to do. so whatever ha.
I am seriously thinking about finally starting a band. It’ll be so different from any of the bands out there right now. it’ll be alot of fun. I think I’ll regret it so much if I at least didn’t give it a serious attempt. There are only two things I ever really wanted to do which was either to make music, or become a cop. So I at least wanna do one of those
anyway’s this shit is fuckin with my eyes right now so I’ll write again later.
stay black
