I just got back from taking a 5 hour or so car ride. I hate long car rides anymore. Just sitting there in a car not being able to lay down or anything for a few hours really sucks. I think its maybe because since I’m in Kansas… there isn’t really much to see. I don’t know, I love Kansas though and it does change a lot. Where I’m its basically flat, but west Kansas is full of huge hills and everything, so it isn’t the same all over.
I remember when I was around 7 or so we went to my Uncles wedding. I think that it was some where in Kansas City, along the way there were these beautiful hills. Hundreds of them covered in green grass, it was like a painting. I still have never forgotten those images. I wish I knew exactly where it was because I’d love to go back.
Anyway’s I don’t know why I so dislike stupid car rides or whatever you call them. Maybe its because when I was a teenager we would have to drive back and forth to the group homes. (sometimes on the weekends I got to go home) and the ride back was always depressing, so maybe that’s why. Or its really just because they are boring and plain out suck ass.
I do get a lot of song ideas in the car though. So that’s at least one really good thing about long ass car rides.
I forgot what I as going to write about haha. 
I seriously doubt that I was going to write about boring ass car rides. I was probably going to write another semi-self pity post. I dunno. uhh. hmm.
Oh yeah, I still can’t find that book! I think that I am going to have to end up going to one of them … book store places… The last time I actually went to one and bought books was around 2000 and 2001 when I as in a group home and was severely bored. I went and bought like 15 books that I have never read. I think I’ve only read 2 of them. I started on another but reading long ass books is something that bores me as well. I can read encyclopedia and stuff like that for hours, but not fiction books.
Oh yeah, while I as in the car I was wondering about this webbie journal thing. Like I bet the only time someone will ever even come here and read this stuff will be when I’m dead or something, or famous or something weird, so I’m not completely wasting my time by writing in it now. I dunno. Either way I think its good to randomly write crap down. It’s just weird to do it in such a public way where anyone can read it. I don’t care really though because I think that I am super honest and I’d tell anyone anything anyway’s.
I am so tired…. getting ready to passout. uh
I think I’ll write again later ha
TOODLES! (yes I just said toodles again)…. 
