Some people actually read parts of my site, which always shock me, and I know that’s going to stop happening if I don’t start writing more. I need to, and I always think about writing about something, but never do.
I’m still kinda going through a phase where i hate writing about myself. I hate talking about my opinions, and really don’t want to seem as though i am forcing them onto others. But, at the same time i realize now that that is how you talk to others. It’s always going to be personal, and stop worrying about appearing narcissistic. So yeah, slowly, I am breaking down this wall I built up in my mind, and I should be talking more and more lately, ha,weird I know.
I was going to write about yesterday being the 9th year anniversary of 9/11, but didn’t.That day still lives through my memory as though it was earlier today. Probably the most saddest day of my life. hard to believe that next year will be the 10th year since it happened, yet still so fresh. I don’t remember a lot of stuff that I did almost 10 years ago, especially not an entire day or week, but that day is still there. As sad as it was, it’s a memory I’d like to have forever.
I started a new job a few weeks ago, meh, its okay. Just extremely boring, and not stimulating at all, but it’s a job, I need money, so its fine. Can’t really complain about it since jobs are hard to come by now, but it’s a shit job. I think a lot of people could get these “shit jobs” if they just lowered their expectations and took what they could get.
Sometimes I think that having small low paying jobs here and there are much better than having one career job your entire life where you barely leave the office. At least with a crap job here and there you can experience a lot more. But then again, they pay shit, and you can barely do much with what you earn.
it does give me time though to work on my music ideas, and hopefully I can finally post some of my music here soon.
A lot of people have been talking about Obama lately, and Quran burnings. Neither make really much sense to me. I had tears in my eyes the night Obama was elected. I was so happy and excited, and was never that excited over poultices before, but since then he has kinda let me and many down. It seems like he wont stand up to the republicans, and fight for what he believes in. He is trying to do a buddy buddy thing, which the republicans have refused and said “NO” to everything he has tried to propose anyways, and yet he still tries to be their friends, and NOTHING really is getting done. It’s just depressing. I seen a speech he gave the other day about a new plan to build up the Infrastructure in the United States, and finally stood up to republicans. I don’t know if this is talk, but it was exciting, and I hope to see him actually do something. I mean, STAND UP! and tell the country what the Republicans are doing. Don’t try to buddy with them. They are just going to refuse to work with Obama. It’s what they have been doing since he got elected, and it makes no sense at all. It’s sad.
Health care is the big issue. Republicans say Americans don’t want national health care. THAT IS BULLSHIT! I live in the real world, and we would love it. I have yet to meet one person in real life who was against health care. What we are against is the Bullshit final healthcare reform bill. It was such as let down. I’d actually prefer doing away with it. Go back to the original plan that actually will accomplish something, or don’t do it at all. These things are basic common sense.
The burning of Quran issue is a messy situation. I personally would not be offended if someone burnt the Bible, or anything like that. I do consider myself to be more of a Christian than anything else, even though I don’t want to follow any domination, or groups, or anything like that. But if someone wants to burn it, go ahead, be a weirdo.
I’m finding it hard to understand many of these religious protestors. I mean, they protest against each other, and burn each others religious or personal objects. We have “Christian” Americans threatening to burn Qurans, and Some Muslims protesting that idea by burning American flags and shouting “burn America” etc, Makes zero sense. I know some really good honest, and sweet Muslims, and Christians, and its said the radical ones make the rest of them all look evil, and its very sad. It just goes back and forth.
It’ll be best to just stop burning anything. There is no point to it, it silly to me, and the only people you’re upsetting are the other crazies.
I really hate writing about religion and political matters, I’m even worried about having written what I was trying to say incorrectly, and some may misinterpret it, but I think if I stay honest, and try to write what’s in my heart, others will see what I’m sayin and understand it. I only wish people who practice these religions would go back to what the religion actually teaches, which is love and understanding, which is what the foundation of these religions teach. Stop the protests, and the hatefulness. It’s getting us no where.
As I said, I do know Muslims who are very sweet, honest good people, As I do with Christians, and people of other faiths. These people you usually don’t see because they don’t want to blab about their opinions to everyone. they aren’t going to protest for things that don’t matter anyways, and aren’t going to cause violence to anyone.
I miss being a kid sometimes. Adult life is so stressful. as a kid you never have to worry about how to fight evil, and make peace, or anything depressing really. You just live and have fun.
I wish that the world would get better and more peaceful, but if you look back at Human History, t here has always been war. It’s a part of Human Nature. I really wish that it weren’t though. life is so much better without it. Another super sad thing is that many wars are caused by religion. it’s something to think about.
I think that there is still huge hope that we can have Peace. The technology age has connected most of us young people. I can easily talk to someone from the middle east and become friends over the internet, even though we come from two totally different backgrounds. Us talking builds and understanding of each other, which removes the fear, and ignorance that many of the past generations have had. And many of us have no need or want to fight eachother any more. I know my great great Grandpa probably didn’t think too much of people in the Middle East when he was alive. This is probably mostly caused by never knowing any of them, or actually speaking with one person from the middle east. So he was brought up on crazy stories, and lies. This isn’t a problem for us younger people.
It’s a bit like the racial history of the USA. Each Generation throughout the past 100 years has been less and les racist. Now in my generations its not even a problem. When I see someone with dark skin, I don’t feel or think any differently than I do when I see someone whose white. That’s just how my generation is.
I do admit that there are still racists, or crazy people here and there, but its a lot different.
I dunno, but I think its going to get much better. I hope so at least.
I plan to start writing more. Especially now since I can write about world issues and such, which I haven’t really done before. We’ll see where this goes. 
