This suck. Earlier i wrote a full entry here that took up the entire page, but just alittle bit ago i came back here to show my friend shawn something and everything was corrupt and messed up! Some how half of it got deleted. So i guess I have to retype alot of what I said, even though I dont remember a damn thing i said haha. anyways I guessI am goingt o start this blog, journal thing again. I think it’ll be more like a journal. I dont like “Blogs” or whatever. So yea, this is my online journal thing. I’ll try to be real on it and only talk about real shit goin on. I’ve been looking for scripts that I can use for my blog thingy, but none of them worked the way i want. WordPress was the best and prettiest, but it was hard to insert it into my damn layout. I’ve been using cutenews for everything for years and I know how to customize it really well and im already using it for the new sites and updates, plus the media section, so why not use it for this also? kinda pisses me off how my last post was all screwed up tho..
Anyways i feel like shit today. I have a huge ass cold and it feels weirder than any cold i ever had. Really feels like my head is disconnected from my body 
i dunno what the smile is for..
so yea..
I found some of my old pages on this archive thing. like the page i was using as a journal thing, it was more of a news thing for my old site from 2001. It was when i was goin to more group homes and shit. I lost that page and ithought it was very interesting to find it again. I am so different now than i was then. Back then i could actually think and use my brain so things i said made a little more sense back then. hah
anyways here is that page old page…
i been sleepin most of today. Im gonna go sleep some more soon. so damn tired. It sucks too cuzz i really wanted to talk to Nichole. She is such an amazing girl! and i miss her alot…… but we’ll talk later.
i cant think of anything else to write right now and ihope it doesnt get deleted lol. but i’ll write again soon
-josh 
