do doo dooo!
Im just sitting here so bored. I just woke up a little bit ago. I woke up earlier but was so bored that i went back to sleep.
The dream that I had was so weird that I married some girl that lived down the street (real girl doesn’t exist) and we didn’t live together or anything. Anyway’s in the dream i hadn’t seen her for a while (must have been a few days or a week or something, i dunno) so i went to her house.
Have you ever not seen someone for a long time, but only because you thought that they didn’t want to see you. And they didn’t see you because they thought that you didn’t want to see them? So you never see eachother? (confused) anyway’s that’s what happened in the dream.
But then she thought I was cheating on her (something that I’d never do! I hate it when people do that). So for some reason in the dream i went home and started deleting alot of emails and myspace messages (I don’t even really use myspace or email people) but just so she wouldn’t think I was cheating on her or anything. Then i woke up ha.
What a weird dream!
This was actually going to be a very random short entry. I had to write something since i didn’t write anything yesterday. I started to write one last night, but it was coming too negative so i scrapped it ha. I need to only write on here when I have something to actually write about… uhh well today — right now i didn’t have anything to write about 
I am debating rather or not I want to walk and get me another delicious french vanilla cappuccino. I was going to go earlier and drive my moms car, but she wanted me to get her a pack of cigarettes also. I hate buying those. and she gave me alot of change to buy them with. So i was like forget that. and went back to sleep.
ha she never buys me a cappuccino when she goes and get her cigs or anythimg, so i don’t feel too bad about it. Smoking is so lame and expensive!
I’ll probably end up going ahead and walkin up there. Nothing else to do and its only a mile or two walk so it’s not bad. Maybe i’ll take pictures on the way.
I took pictures on the way the other day, but none of them were interesting so I didn’t post them.
My niece keeps coming to me while I’m typing this and wanting me to use the lighter to catch some marshmallows on fire for her.
Why do they taste so much better once they have been on fire anyway’s?
I’ll write again later
-josh
TOODLES! 
headache
OMG! I have another damn headache! AHH! this sucks so much ha.
I need to just rename this site to “my headaches” or something.
I’m not really talkative or quick or clever or super funny or anything right now, again, so this wont be very long.
So anyways there isn’t anything really new to talk about. Not much happening with me ha.
I did take down the main damnidunno. It’ll be down at least until I can develop a team to help me produce it. i hate doing it alone. I Don’t have time nor the inspiration to do it anymore.
I always used to doodle and stuff. So i spent a few minutes and made some random doodles that are on there right now.
http://www.damnidunno.com – The forums and everything are still up though!
If anyone wants to help out with damnidunno .com .org .us .net . info then just email me or something.
I also think that one of the Admin’s at NBC.com hates me or something. I’ll write about that later.
anyways eHomie dawgs. thats it for now!
Stay Studly!
-josh
OH MY GOD
Howdy again ePilgrims
I know sometimes i sound gay when i type on here (its cool to sound gay). But, I never ever have gay moments. Mostly because im not gay ha, But i just left and got my convenient store french vanilla cappuccino (I FLIPPING LOVE IT!) and im already feeling better about life! ha hehe. plus the new store i goto sells a 32oz of it for onyl 63cents! How AWESOME IS THAt?!
It’s like a dream!
The other gas station down the street sells a 19 oz or something for like $1.20.
Anyways on the way back I saw someone watching and instantly i said "Mmmmhh" as in looks good. But usually I only say this when i see a hot girl or something, which I’ve been saying ALOT lately. Since for some reason alot of girls are looking hott.
the person I saw walking was a guy! I knew it before i even seen him and I still said it. Instantly after i said that i said out loud to myself "what the fuck?!".
I said it without thinking, it was like an auto message or something. I know im not gay and i’ll never be gay, but I think I’ve gotten so used to saying that that I automatically said it when seeing someone.
Which leads me to believe that I need to be more judgmental on my "mmmmhhh" saying process. Or actually think at all when i saw it for now on.
By the way, I just took this picture of me. It was actually of the real view mirror. Hey! How come pictures of people, especially me… Look so much better when they are from the mirrors that I am looking into? isn’t that weird?
I need to clean these mirrors beforehand though because they always end up looking like I have white spots on my flippin face.
Anyway’s here is the pic:
Click to see larger pic.
And yes, i was very mad…. Kidding. I think i just look angry all the time.
Toodles!
damn damn nothing new
ehomiez!
I woke up today with my normal daily headache. So i can’t think right now ha, i took some Excendrin Migraine medicine a little bit ago, so i hope it kicks in soon. It used to be the only thing that helped relieve the, but even it doesn’t work that well anymore.
I woke up around 9am I think, but i went back to sleep soon after because im sooo damned tired. I woke up at 11 something, but still sooooooooo flipping tired. I need more sleep. 9+ hours never does it for me hehe. I think i need 14+.
Plus I haven’t really recovered from the 12+hour drive and lack of sleep.
I’m not kidding, I have slept over 3 days straight once, so its weird.
I noticed that in alot of my entries I seem to have a headache. You can really tell when its bad though because then the entry doesn’t make much sense at all.
Sicko!
I downloaded Michael Moore’s film “Sicko”. I have been saddened for a while over the USA not having proper health care. I’ve actually thought about getting into politics to fix these problems, but with my mental challenges (cant think ever, especially with the headaches) i wouldn’t be very good.
Alot of people say the government is racist or whatever, but that is rarely ever the case. The USA is decided amongst two groups: Rich & Poor. The rich only seem to care about themselves and getting richer. Of course they don’t care about health care or anything, they can afford it, and sometimes they even seem to be the ones making money off the health care system.Unfortunately almost everyone in the government is rich. So they leaves most of us out of luck, even though SOMETIMES we elect these politicians into power. I’m unsure how that happens though.
I believe that’s why we don’t have national health care. its all about money.
When Hurricane Katrina it, people said the government didn’t response because of racism. I never believed that. I watched the video footage on tv. There were tons of victims. Black, white, Latino, etc. Everyone. But all of these people had something in common: THEY WEREN’T RICH!
the government is so worried about helping people over seas and fighting wars etc, but not interested in helping the poor and homeless people here in America? How does that even make sense?
Michael Moore’s documentary makes me think of all of this. I feel its all connected. ( ha that’s funny, I have msnbc on in the background, and after I wrote that, a commercial for it came on. how flipping cool is that?). Seriously all of this is upsetting.
I feel that everyone needs to see the film. You can download it online for free also. Michael himself has said that he doesn’t?t care if people download and share it (the production company is most likely against it though).
I downloaded it here in DVD quality:
http://pop.thousandrobots.com/2007/06/download_sicko.php
I’m not very political or anything, i rarely ever discuss things political, but these isn’t a political argument really. I believe in human rights and that we should have national health care. I mean common?!?
Please download and watch that video!
Ross’s Chat!
I’ve been banned from Ross’s chat room! I hadn’t even been in there long either. I did create a duplicate name. At first i signed up with the username: damnidunno, but then i thought using my real name would be better since almost everyone there did, So i signed up again using the name Joshx. Soon after it said that i was banned. I think this is due to duplicate names? I hope so because this flipping sucks.
i emailed him and told him about it. He’s on vacation now so I don’t expect anything to happen anytime soon, but hopefully he’ll fix it. Or i’ll just be banned for ever hehe. I’m not mad or upset over it, its just annoying. I’m still a fan though!
I promise that some day, this webbie journal will be so exciting and cool! i’ll go on fantastical adventures and everything! ha. Right now its only going to be lame lol.
New ideas for the webbie journal!
I have been wanting to create audio entries instead of just all text. Mostly because i sound better in real life, then i do in text and I sound less boring I think.
I don’t know. Alot of people do the video blogs, but i don’t think that I want to do that. I hate being on camera all the time. So i might start doing the audio ones when i can!
So tired
I’m so tired but cannot sleep at all.
We got back around 3:30pm, So that means that we were in the car for 12+ hours, which i hate.
I’m in a very bad grumpy mood today. Mostly due to being so tired. I don’t want to fall asleep right now, because then I would sleep all day and then wake up in the middle of the night, and then be unable to fall back to sleep.
I’m very surprised that we didn’t crash this morning. I know my mom was very tired. She got up around 5am the previous morning to goto work. I didn’t wake up til 11am the other day, so I wasn’t as tired i suppose.
So after a few hours into the drive, she asked me if i’d drive for her, So i did. I could not read the signs because i was so tired. I was actually a bit scared. I kept seeing double and everything ha, but luckily we didn’t crash or anything. I’m just as tired now though.
I didn’t take that many pictures as I said I would. I was way too tired.
I only driven for an hour or so and let my mom rest, and then i let her drive again and i rested some, but never completely fell asleep. I have to be in a perfect position to be able to sleep good. Usually its on my stomach with a cold fan or ac on so i have to snuggle myself or something, and then pass out. It’s way too hard to fall asleep in a car. I hate laying on my back, i don’t know why, but its hard for me to sleep that way.
I started to drive again after the sun started to rise. I could see better and didn’t seem as tired with all the light. We had to stop for gas at around 6am and i took this picture:
By the way, why the heck is gas so high? it was around $3.45 a gallon at this gas station. THATS ALOT!
Around 9am we picked up my brother. uh, and this is a picture of that moment:
He seemed to be happy to be out of that place, but i dunno,. I hope he doesn’t do anything stupid to be sent back to prison again. It’s crazy! But maybe he kinda likes it. who knows. I know i’d hate it.
So we started to drive, and i finally was able to pass out and get some sleep. I had to of slept for more then an hour, i’m not sure, but when you’re that tired you can sleep for an hour and it’ll really seem like a micro second.
Then i drove the rest of the way back to Wichita. About 30 miles.
When we got back to Wichita, My brother had to go to the Parole office or wherever, and while he was doing that, i randomly took 2 pictures of downtown Wichita:
And then this one when we left and was on the highway thingie:
I love Wichita
Then we went to eat pizza, which i love. I can eat over 15 pieces! And i do.i love it! LOVVEEE IT!
So then we drove 30 more miles and dropped my brother off at my cousins house. Here is a picture of him and my cousin:
haha my cousin is cool
and then we came back here. And im so damn tired. My mom has been asleep ever since we got back around 3:30pm, i dosed off a bit, but I think it’ll be best to wait til its sleep sleep time to actually goto sleep, for the reasons I posted earlier.
Wow this is one boring entry. ha im just sooooooooo tired. I actually wasn’t even going to post any of this today. I started writing something for today’s entry earlier when we got back, but i was like “forrrget itttt” but i decided too anyway’s.
I’ll get better at this stuff with time. Anyway’s im toooooo tired to be cool right now ha. so i’ll write again soon
TOODLES!
HHHHHEY
we’re leaving now to go pick up my brother ha, i think we have to be there at 8am, and its 2:33am.
I’ll take some awesome pics! woot
TOODLES
Fun Fun Fun
I’m baking some chocolate cake. I think it’s more like brownies though? Who knows. I hate cake.
I actually should not be cooking this because I’m pretty sure that it contains alot of sugar. I’m going to stop drinking any pop, candy and really stop eating anything that has a lot of sugar (ooh my good, i just remembered that my french vanilla cappuccino has sugar) uhh nvm all that now. I can’t live without that. I suppose i can stop everything else, but still O.D. On my cappuccino every day.
Right after I wrote my last entry, all the kids wanted to go blade and ride bikes again, So i grabbled my camera and went.
We only went about 3 miles this time, so it wasn’t much. They mostly just wanted to go down a hill and record it ha. So we did.
I’m posting this video for this:
I actually kinda crashed at the end there. I have no breaks so the only way to stop… is to run into somethi9ng that’ll stop you. As in a wall, tree, etc. Sometimes its other people.
I’m also in the ranting mood. I bought this email program called ‘Incredimail” a month or so ago for $19. I used a coupon or otherwise it’d be $29.
I keep getting so much damn spam with it. The only built in spam filter says that you need to subscribe to activate it, which costs $39 yearly. How lame is that?
Most free email clients such as Mozilla’s Thunderbird come with the build in spam filtering. This damn annoys me!
I love the app though, it is so fun to use. There is a free version of it if you do not get annoyed by ads http://www.incredimail.com
It really makes emailing fun! Oh yeah, and if you dont like having a spam filter! hehe
Anyway’s, I’ll get over that.
I’ll write again later.
HAVE FUN Webbie Friends!
Toodles!
Howdy Pilgrims!
A little bit ago my nephew Tristan, my cousin Dylan, and I got back from our skate thing. Actually they rode their bikes. I had my blades on. I love them!
We went a few miles to this place called “Harvest Creek”. I believe its a flood water draining pond/ditch thing. I think all the local farm areas drain off into it or something, i don’t know how all the water gets there really. But anyway’s since its made to hold alot of water it has HUGE hills.
When i was a little kid we used to always go there and climb the hills and slide down them with cardboard boxes. I don’t remember if we ever did it in the snow.
It was kinda hard to climb it with the blades on though. I was going to actually see if I could blade down the hill. That’d be cool. But there is so many weeds and everything that I probably would have done a head dive all the way down the hill.
Last month we were there and I was laying down on my side and rolling down the hill. Getting sliced up by all the weeds and tall glass blades on the way down, but it was fun. Kinda bumpy though. I remember that i also used to do that when we were little.
Here is a random video I made. The first part is of me going down a normal steep road on my blades. It doesn’t seem like I was going fast in the video, but during the time it felt that way, and i was on my blades, the road was bumpy and i thought that I was going to die, so excuse the language .
The second part is me on top of the hill asking my nephew where he was. You can’t see him too well, but he was getting so pissed at me. I could see him just fine, was just messing with him. You can actually hear him cussing at me, hehe. I was actually doing that before this video started, and i continued after. I don’t even now why he kept responding ha. But he did which made it fun for me to annoy him.
I wonder what time my mom will leave to go pick my brother up from prison ha, Last time we left…. I think around midnight or so so we could be there in the morning to get him. Maybe it was more like 3am, i don’t know.
I haven’t seen her much lately so I haven’t been able to ask her.
Dang, last time we went to pick him up from prison was last September.
I hope he acts cool this time and doesn’t cause much drama. he needs to stay out of jail. Must suck in there.
I only went to jail one time, and I had to stay there all night. Only like 19 hours. And it sucked so much! I’ll write about that later. It was in Jan 07, so wasn’t that long ago.
Prison shouldn’t be as bad as jail though since you are there for a while and most times you don’t have to stay in the cell 25/7. Well, i think you do unless you’re in a high security prison. I don’t know. Hopefully I’ll never be sent to prison.
Anyways I’ll write again later.
TOODLES HOME eDAWGS!
Narcissistic
I really do not think that I am Narcissistic enough to do this web journal thing. I really hate talking about myself, posting pictures of my self or even seeming that i want to force my opinions onto others. But, i suppose if im gonna do this that it’ll always seem that way since its mostly me just talking about random stuff, and i know more about myself so I dunno.
I just really don’t want to seem that way. I rarely ever talk about myself in real life. Even on here on myspace (when i used to use it) people would ask me about myself and I wouldn’t know what to say really. I’d rather them ask me questions and i’ll answer honestly.
Have you ever been around someone who was so inlove with themselves? They only wanted to talk about themselves and its odd? i don’t want to be that person for really!
Maybe I can do this journal thing ha, But i always have second thoughts.
I’ll create better entries once I get over this and start loving myself so very much! he he…
But, i am really getting into it. For a while the web was so boring and lame. Nothing to do. Chat rooms were all filled with sex bots, and no one ever replied to me on myspace lmao! so there wasn’t nothing to do, and i got tired of creating the same web site over and over.
So this journal will probably help me in some positive ways. Get me out of my shell a bit.
I have noticed that the more i go into my shell and don’t talk about myself, the more i turn people away. Since i’m not interesting anymore. If i don’t talk about me sometimes, then the other person is having to always talk about themselves, which puts them in a odd post icon. So they are like “fuck this” and say “peace out”. hehe which i totally understand.
I have noticed that alot of celebs blog. Which is cool. They do it though to communicate with their fanbase, which is awesome.
The only two interested celeb blogs that I found so far is Ross Matthew’s and Rosie O’donnell’s which is why i have links to them here.
I check their blogs everyday. Again, their blogs are the reasons I even decided to go ahead and get serious about this. Maybe someday I’ll be famous and then i’ll need a blog. haha
Well if that happens, then finally someone will be reading this!
I knew that if i stayed up late tonight, i’d eventually create a real entry, as i said in my previous one ha.
I really should head to bed though.
Soon, i need to find me a new job so i can pay my court fines for driving without a license! ha i need to get a license also!
I wonder if i’ll be in the mood to even write on here if i get a stressful job. I know alot of old people are always tired and stressed out from working all the time, so they don’t do anything really.
I don’t wanna be a stressed-out-overworked-old-person! ahh!
Maybe i should get some beauty sleep? ha Actually for me it’d be “stud muffin sleep”
I’ll write again later ePilgrims! have fun!
-Josh
lalalala
Wussup ehomiez?!?
I cannot think of one thing to say right now. Nothing really to talk about really.
I don’t do much ever so there’s just nothing to say.
I am creating this post entry via Microsoft Word 2007! I remember when I was using it a while back that there was this “new blog post’ icon that appeared when you clicked “new doc”. I never bothered with it since I didn’t blog or care to do my web journal. So since I’m all caring and think that this is awesome now, I started to think about Word and that feature that I saw.
I was previously using Windows Live Writer, but for some reason its buggy and laggy. Word is a full program, so it should be better to use. Plus it has more features. Anyways, we’ll see how this works out.
Its 12:00am now! That means its Tuesday and tomorrow my brother gets released from prison again. I don’t know if I’ll write with my mommy to get him. I did last time and it was a really long ass drive, and was kinda lame. I haven’t talked to him since he got sent back there in January though. I’ll probably go just to get out of the house.
Well By golly Geeze, (or is it jeeze?) I have no idea what to write.
I’m so flippin tired today. Maybe if I stay up late tonight I’ll think of something cool and amazing to say. I need to redevelop my personality or something 
< – now i’m using windows live writer again, word got weird – >
Oh yeah! I downloaded the Shania Twain hits cd. Usually i hate getting mp3′s, i’d much rather get the cd, but this time i was like “what the bloody hell” or something and I just downloaded it.
I love a few of her songs such as: Still the one…
That’s a beautiful song and I’ve always thought that it was. I suggest that you check it out if you haven’t. It’s been out since like around 1997 or so, but it’s still great. Even if you already know it, check it out again!
btw, I promise that I’ll attempt to be more entertaining, exciting, uh an happy or whatever in the future! I’ll also pretend that I have a life to write about
Hey! Alot of people post pictures of themselves on their eWeb Journal diary things, so uh since i don’t feel like posting a picture of me, i took one of my webbie Journal ha. I must admit that it’s beaaaaaaautiful.
Anyways internet eDawgs, I’ll write again soon.
-josh
